But the thing is, I don’t wanna be friends. I can either love you or hate you for the rest of my life. That’s how I see it.

“I’m scared of everything. I’m scared of what I saw, im scared of what i did, of who I am. But most of all, I’m scared of walking out of this room and never feeling my whole life the way I feel when I’m with you. -dirty dancing

Random thoughts -why don’t I just take you to prom -why don’t I like the nice guys -why cant you be available? You’re perfect for me. -I miss people that aren’t gone -everytime I go to tweet something that’s a little too personal, I’m like “no that’s for tumblr. ” -dear me, repeat after me: I will stop giving more to guys than they deserve. I will stop giving more to guys than they deserve.” -don’t cry. -I really wish I didn’t eat that much. -I’m still excited for tomorrow -I love you, too.

Change of pace. Instead of complaining to everyone about the things that irk me, I’m just gonna list them. 1. Snoring 2. Cockblocks. Of any kind. 3. People that get pissed at me for how much products at my work cost. Yes, because i, the part-time cashier, am not only consulted on matters of business, but I actually fuse together my knowledge of supply and demand of each individual product, my knowledge of the cost to run the business, and my knowledge of profit patterns from each year, and bam! here’s the price I decided you have to pay for this product. 4. People who don’t get hints. 5. Guys who think i want them just because i show a slight interest in them. 6. Nosey people who don’t actually care about me. 7. People who subtweet about people using their names. Stop. Its rude. Who are you, anyway? Cyberbullying is a crime. 8. Teachers who do the opposite of inspire. 9. Voicemails. 10. Cold weather.

We all have that advice that we’re good at giving but not so good at taking. I am full of it. And since I decided that it ks literally impossible for me to figure out my own problems unless they are someone else’s, I’m gonna give advice that’s really just for me. If it oz.useful to you, by all means, take it. If not, disregard. 1. Do not be flattered by things guys say to you mid-hookup. You may actually be gorgeous and sexy and amazing, but its not sincere if he manages to choke it out between breaths while you’re dry-humping. 2. It is never okay to say yourself “I’m not good enough” or “they’d like me better if” or “why cant I be like that?” 3. If it’s okay to laugh your ass off at things that shouldn’t be funny, then its okay to cry. It really is okay to throw a pissy fit, call all of your friends, pout when only two of them answer, and finally give up and watch a movie by yourself. 4. Your mom really can be your best friend, so let her in. Stop keeping her at a distance because of the past. Its not what you really want and she loves to feel close to you. You’ve both suffered enough from each other. Let it go. 5. Guys who are taken, though for some reason are hotter than single guys, are just that. Taken. So move on. No ifs, ands, or buts. 6. There is a guy out there who really does give a shit and doesn’t care if you’re willing to jump his bones on the first date because hes too busy romancing you. He exists. But here’s the catch: you cant find him if you keep doing what you’re doing. You can, however, find him if you show respect and confidence in yourself and give him a chance to get to know you before he’s gasping sweet nothings into your ear that seem charming until you realize he didn’t even buy you dinner. (See rule 1) 7. Your body. Learn to love it. A lot of other people do so you must be doing something right. Sure, there may be girls who get paid to look better than you, but there are also other girls who admire your appearance and compare it to their own. 8. Stop trying to live too fast. So many exciting things happen during your youth that will one day cease to amuse you. You have plenty of time to be serious when you’re older. Don’t be so jaded. Things are still new and fresh and there’s so much to live for. And if you’re having trouble identifying what there is to live for, think of the people that don’t have much life to live. You know who I’m talking about. He lives for you, so if all else fails, live for him. Because he doesn’t have a lot of time like you do. Because he doesn’t have an abundance of energy like you do. Because he doesn’t have the world waiting for him like you do. 9. Its completely okay to sit back and think about how awesome you are and to have those “I don’t know how I do it” thoughts. Because, lets be honest, while your flaws are many in number, you are pretty strong and put-together despite what you face everyday. Give yourself a break. 10. Let people be there for you. Let people take care of you and compliment you and love you. You deserve it. In fact, you deserve the best the world has to offer. So go get it. And let people help you when you need it along the way.

perks of being a girl

• I can think about whatever I want in class without worrying about boners

(Source: ifurted)

and it just sucks because i’m sitting here all alone, missing a boy that was never mine. so since i may never get the chance to tell him how he’s been on my mind for while, i’ll just write it now.

to you,

i’m sorry for everything. if it’s any consolation, i still think about you all the time. and i just want you to know that you’re one of my favorite memories of the past four years and i’m so glad i met you. but more than that, i just want you to know that for me it’s always been you.

love,
      me